Its too late

I love you but I know it wont happen.

Dong dong dong qiang

Other than red packets. I seriously do hate Chinese New Year. Hate the awkwardness within the relatives and especially my those cousins at my dad's side. They really act cool Which I cannot take it even I tried to talk to them. They still give me that awkward look....

Ah whatever happy Chinese New Year everybody. :)

There is no such thing call forever

I was not lucky to have you. I was not chosen by some divine spirit who looked past my physical flaws to gift me with your half-hearted attention. You were simply taking advantage of the fact that I cared too much, that I had been told for so long that any relationship was preferable to being alone. Perhaps the greatest gift I’ve ever given myself was leaving you that week. Though you put me through the ringer.

You do not deserve me because you are not a caring, loving person. You are not here to receive love, or grow from it, or give it in kind. I am beautiful in the real way, the way that comes from being a person who is capable of empathy and compromise. I am beautiful because I work hard to be nice to other people, and to show them I love them. And sure, you may be good looking. You may be charming. You may have every superficial quality that our society is so quick to deem important. But you are not beautiful, and for that, you will never be deserving of someone like me.

Get well soon my lil sister. It breaks my heart to see you like this. I spend my whole night awake and watch my sis. Get well soon. :) love ya xxx