We don’t realize how important it is to have a true cheerleader and supporter, a motivator, someone who is unfailingly on our team, until we don’t have it anymore. There will always be a shock absorber for the more difficult-to-stomach moments of life, and someone there with whom to share your pains and your joys. It’s a luxury that so few of us are afforded, and yet, we are so quick to convince ourselves when we have it that it will last forever.
One day. You wake up and realize that your entire day will be navigated alone, nobody is there to ask you how it was and really care to hear your answer. When something wonderful or terrible happens, there won’t be that person you know you can immediately call to make sense of everything. You have friends, you have family. But there isn’t that sense of navigating the stream together, of being part of a team, of having someone who will always think of you first. The partnership is different less all encompassing, less implied. You know that you can call them, but you want to call the one you love. The one who, inconvenient as it is, no longer loves you.
Wondering if you’re ever going to be happy. Wondering about happiness doesn’t lead to happiness, it just puts you in a sort of purgatory state that prevents you from actually pursuing happiness (which is attainable when you’re proactive about it, if you were wondering).
Be brave to say "I'm sorry" to someone even you know he or she doesn't deserve it. Sometimes its best to put yourself first. While I have been putting others first I didn't care much about myself. After putting someone first the person just left you heartbroken. Yes, that's life. A lot of what we do is rooted in guilt so we’re constantly apologising for things we shouldn’t be. Being brave would be foregoing the apology and risk coming off as an asshole to someone. You realize there are worse things in life than coming off as a jerk to someone you don’t like, right?
Go out, make new friends. Put yourself first. Work or study hard. Don't disappoint yourself. Stay positive and happy. That's a better and healthier life. Find more hobby, exercise, or maybe go out alone if you are comfortable with that. Listen to good music. If you still feel sad, write your thoughts in your diary, write it down, cry out loud, talk to someone who understands you and feels you. Don't go through alone. There are many problems in this world. But you can overcome all problems if you willing to try and go through and find situations.
It is really strange, I don't have that going crazy over you feeling. That "I want you back" feeling or thinking is gone. Many people told me that he will regret for he has lose someone who love him so much and treated him like gold. But fuck it seriously. Ha ha ha. It doesn't matter to me at all. But inside me a little hope that he will regret cause the worst mistake he can ever make is walk away from someone who have been there for him and stood beside him and waited for him. Cause I know now he has always treated me like I'm his spare tyre.
And i realize there are many people out there who really never gave up on me. Who always there for me, love me and guide me. And I know it was my mistake then for losing you. Is you and not my ex boyfriend.
If you don’t love yourself, how can you love someone in the context of a relationship? We shouldn’t put our entire self-confidence and self-worth in the hands of other people, because loving yourself is the hardest kind of love there is. Love yourself first so you can love others.
I have go through shit like this... I hope this help you guys. May force always be with you guys!
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